deep thoughts on holidays once again....
arrggghhhh. this happens to me every holiday....damn commercials. I always ALWAYS get mushy and
sentimental and then do something extremely stupid and pathetic. man, me and Clark Griswold could so hang out at Wallyworld together. What is this obviously meaningless quest for truth for if nobody TELLS you anything? Mainly, because it means something to me. And frankly, it makes me mad that people lack the courtesy of granting a conversation because it's too upsetting or inconvenient for them. well, get over yourself. I know I'm trying to. I will not beat myself up over this anymore. In my heart, I see nothing wrong with trying to reach out to people who have proven without a doubt they make dumb decisions. everyone makes dumb decisions...the difference between being a jerk and having compassion is what you do after the dumb decision. Do you just ignore the fact that it's possible that you're not perfect and miss out on a wonderful human being in your life? Completely stand behind your dumb decision because YOU made it and will just not admit to it being dumb? (2 dumb decisions are even worse by the way and make you even more of a jerk) or do you actually do the right thing admit your human talk to the person you've hurt and move on to getting to know each other better? Which is the best outcome? hrrrmmmmm. well internet, frankly I write to you because you're the only one who listens and doesn't judge...like the cosmos or putting a letter into a river to be taken away. still the quest for truth continues....
sentimental and then do something extremely stupid and pathetic. man, me and Clark Griswold could so hang out at Wallyworld together. What is this obviously meaningless quest for truth for if nobody TELLS you anything? Mainly, because it means something to me. And frankly, it makes me mad that people lack the courtesy of granting a conversation because it's too upsetting or inconvenient for them. well, get over yourself. I know I'm trying to. I will not beat myself up over this anymore. In my heart, I see nothing wrong with trying to reach out to people who have proven without a doubt they make dumb decisions. everyone makes dumb decisions...the difference between being a jerk and having compassion is what you do after the dumb decision. Do you just ignore the fact that it's possible that you're not perfect and miss out on a wonderful human being in your life? Completely stand behind your dumb decision because YOU made it and will just not admit to it being dumb? (2 dumb decisions are even worse by the way and make you even more of a jerk) or do you actually do the right thing admit your human talk to the person you've hurt and move on to getting to know each other better? Which is the best outcome? hrrrmmmmm. well internet, frankly I write to you because you're the only one who listens and doesn't judge...like the cosmos or putting a letter into a river to be taken away. still the quest for truth continues....