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I've found a new web toy for my portfolio. clicky on the linkys in the upper right hand corner. I stayed up last figuring it out as it's dynamically driven, able to deflect bullets, and is possibly faster than a speeding train. I haven't compared yet. Please note the images in there are sucky as they got degraded as i was figuring this out, but I will remedy that tonight. Also new hotness designed resume. 
Here she is...live in person...no she's not actually that fuzzy. I was trying to hold a camera up over my and other people's heads while laughing. anyhoo....that's my brush with fame most likely for the year.
As for this week, I'm going to try to update all the portfolio stuff as I'm realizing how much new stuff isn't there and I'm hoping I didn't screw up something by not having it there. along with an updated resume. doh. sooooooon. just didn't want to miss out..
I went to the bed bath & beyond with a friend of mine last night as she needed a champagne bucket for a wedding whe was going to provide carriage services for. The groom to be apparently was feeling the budget of the wedding and refused to purchase one more thing. It's never been customary for her to provide that as she's a carriage provider not an bar. But literally the guy would not shell out the 20 + ice! of course for his bride to be...
Don't think I ever want a fancy wedding. too much stress. especially when it brings out people's ugly side for no reason. ugh.
Paula Poundstone was absolutely wonderful on Friday and I actually got her autograph. I was totally dorky too asking for it, but isn't that why some people want to be famous? I admire her for many things, but I think the most important being that she is who she is. She's upfront about past mistakes and can even laugh about them. She's not afraid to continue to speak about her weaknesses. as I think the pure act of discussing it only makes her a stronger person. I will post some paula pics up soon along with a scan of her autograph...I ended up taking all the pics with my friend's camera as my digital camera is now crap after playing around with hers...same brand but she has a much newer and better version..( as Will Smith would say...mine is the old and busted, her camera is the new hotness.) One weird drawback though was after the set and walking around the hotel trying to find where she was going to sign autographs, I noticed my department was having a party at the hotel after their retreat this week (see previous post)....apparently only the recruiters and counselors get to party. Which frankly I can't blame them after seeing all of the high schoolers and parents they have to deal with. I didn't stick around ... I did discover though that a certain someone had deliberately snubbed me friday evening at Paula's event and I'd like to make it known that it did NOT go unnoticed. All I can say is your loss, and what comes around goes around. Next time just tell the truth. That seems to be too huge of a request of people lately.
Coming up this weekend: my sister's baby shower...(whee and no anxiety there...ppffft almost siad that with a straight face..) the pro's of going home next weekend is the girls get to play all day and wear themselves out along with getting a haircut from Grandpa. (have you seen what it costs to get a dog groomed these days? unbelievable...) I also was informed I got my actual stock certificates (for the piddly amount that I do have) I'm actually pretty excited by that as I've never owned stock before. DivX filed for Public status a couple of months ago which could go a couple of ways. They could get acquisitioned or actually go public. I'm pretty fascinated by the whole process, but could never do it for a living. Money to me is just a means to do what you want. Just acquiring money and doing nothing with it other than to make more doesn't interest me much...eh just like me...and this explains why I'm broke alot...
Anyhoo, in my own small way, Paula I will buy your book and watch your new show....PLEASE work on getting your old stuff on DVD. I think you're great!!!
I think I was haunted by Phil from Heck all this week. Everyday was more frantic and ickier than the next leading up to the penultimate day of today which was the worst of all. There is a silver lining in all of this as I get to see one of my favorite comics of all time live....yes...here! Paula Poundstone....I'm bringing my camera..hopefully, I can get a pic of her. I defintely need to laugh after being this tired and overworked. I still have a long work weekend ahead of me. After that I have to start working on my own project. I don't think I'll be taking on much more outside work for awhile. I am getting quite burnt out. Otherwise, I seriously need to rethink what I'm doing back here. I feel ver overwhelmed with no one to really discuss or vent to without it coming back to bite me in the butt. Even when you're away from work you have to look over your shoulder to make sure who's listening...Everyone's either related or friends with everyone else. I still like it better than a huge city though. I never felt so lonely before. I always had school before and there everyone was going through the same crap so it was easy to make friends. I never really engaged a whole lot socially for social purposes there was always a goal to be met when I got involoved in other people's lives. I guess that's why people work to. but you don't get to pick who you work with per say now do you? *sigh* I like what I'm doing, I just wish there wasn't so much of it
wow...so talented
Well I've come to the conclusion that the girls have decided to take redecorating into their own paws and not consulting me about it. I also have reached the point where I really need to get out more when I begin seeing my schnauzers conspire together after watching too much trading spaces....but they make me happy and I do love my little dogs. even if they believe spanish moss looks good spread all over the carpet. (but it's Feng Shui mom!)
Maisy oversees the various perspectives of how the room "pops" from the arm chair angle view...more spanish moss is needed in the corner Mia....it's a trifle sparse in the corner...
Mia decides that a shredded basket makes the look complete as too much moss can make or break a room and God forbid if Martha Stewart drops by and asks for a tour. Please note the use of NO outlet covers to give a raw unfinsihed loft look....tres chic.
oh and multiple stuffed chew toys are a welcome addition to a comfy room....makes you want to pull up a chew toy and gnaw all day doesn't it?
Really truly need to stop working so much. When do I get to win the lottery again?
In an effort to be better about getting down on myself...I've decided this pretty much describes how I'm feeling...( I didn't say I wouldn't be sarcastic). Do you ever just get tired of being angry at someone who just didn't care? I realize what a futile waste of time and I'm only hurting myself...blah-blah pity-cakes. oh well.
but anyway, I'm tired of it. I'm sure this person couldn't care less for me, but I want it known that you hurt me...ALOT. I'm not afraid to say that I actually have feelings. but you know what? I also have a spine and own up to my mistakes. If I screw up, I make it right or at least try to. Hence the obvious one sidedness to communicate. I am wrong to keep allowing this to bug me. I'm wrong to think you're a rotten guy because in reality you are only weak and can't/won't try to look within yourself to be braver. I hope someday you can find the courage to be a better man. Had I not seen at least a glimpse of it in you, I don't think I would have fallen for you in the first place. I hate feeling this way though.
ok THIS explains it...I'm too freakin' nice. but ok men....here's the catch...make sure it's REAL. because if the beeatch is a lying hag like a certain ex-friend of mine you will be sorry in the long run as all that confidence is a mere facade to cover up the lack of substance. and we wonder why marriages don't last...uh maybe because people are too busy acting one way instead of truly looking within themselves to find out who they really are. and since when did the word bitch become a compliment? I certainly don't see it that way. Nor do I consider sticking up for myself and actually having a personality being bitchy. uh...can we evelvate ourselves a little more ladies and show ourselves a little more respect instead of having to resort to the dominatrix mode to get a point across? I guess men won't listen any other way....ugh
Speaking of conquering your fears. Maisy has been apparently reading my old Snoopy books while I'm at work and has decided to adopt a new way of crate training. Yeah I know...it's a dog pic but at least you get a glimpse of my beeyouteeful walls recently painted and lookin' gooooood.
me likee my walls. and the blinds! my purty blinds! move over Martha. Maisy would like to add that her blankies are by Williams-Sonoma...
I promise this blog will not just turn into a photo album of dog pics. really. BUT...they did this all by themselves. Maisy the queen cell block 9 who pretty much did everything to never have to go in this crate did so willingly ...WHY? because Mia likes her crate and goes in there all the time when I'm working. And recently, that's just been a whole lot. I'm learning so much about web though. I never expected to. I fully really truly expected to go to work for either Pixar or ILM. Truly...since the fateful star wars showing when I was with my dad at the Sugar Land Palms Twin Theatre. It's really interesting how life is unfolding here. I found out today, My sister will be delivering a BIG baby boy (my sister is like 4'-10") in July. Her second child. I on the other hand, am terrified by the thought of having a kid and prolly even more terrified by the fact that I will most likely never have them at all...enter the schnauzer lady. There are alot of things that I feel I've given up in the name of the elusive career that means working for PIXAR or ILM...but y'know alot of people have or had that dream and really...what it truly is...is the chance to be truly creative. which really you can be anywhere. Hence my being back here and having the luxury of owning a home which I know alot of pixar people are struggling with that in beautiful SF. I still envy them in a way. But not entirely anymore. Yes, it would be fun to work there, but really that many hours a week? mmmm. What am I saying, I pretty much am working that much now with all the freelance. I just want to be creative...that's it. But getting back to the subject I was so cleverly distracting myself from...my future....who knows. I spent alot of time effort and money planning for one future that just seems to slip my grasp yet the one I'm in is relatively simple and really pretty cool considering it's got a tremendous future. I think I just got to narrow in in my focus. like "Pixar or bust" sort of thing where anything else was failure. Even Lasseter had his share of failure and look at him now...the employer he most wanted to work for that rejected him is now BEGGING for him and paying dearly for it. I think that's a much better viewpoint than not being able to get through to PIXAR that I am just absolutely the world's best designer. I hate feeling I have to choose. Not that I have the kid option staring at me anyway, but the effort just seems overwhelming.Well, the Davinci Code sadly but not too surprisingly sucked. The book which is usually the case was so much better which is why it sold so well. I'm sure Dan Browne was really ok with that. I'd rather have a movie inspire me to read the book than the other way around. Movies tend to get disappointing because of the sheer bulk of content a book can contain. Lord of the Rings Trilogy being the exception as I just couldn't get through the lofty descriptions of those books. If that makes me a weenie so be it, but you don't see me dressed up in a cape at aggiecon either. (it was being drycleaned...jk)
Currently in the blues mood lately with BB King. Somehow always cheers me up...I guess misery does love company. Actually, I'm really fine just very busy with work and hoping I don't get too burnt out, but as I'm not missing anything most likely I should just focus. I tend to worry too much about what others are up to to measure myself up to that, but learning that it's not a big deal and why would i want to do what you're doing anyway...it's prolly not that fun anyway. so nyah. what I'm doing is actually pretty cool and my home is no longer a fudgecicle so things are good.
well ok, maybe he just liked it rough. Anyhoo, I started pilates last night...only 20 min a night! and omigod OW. I felt REALLY good afterward, but today...youwch. I've also drank more flavored water in one day than I usually do in a month. Does going to the bathroom 8 times every 2 hours count as power walking? It's definitely confused the dogs, as I think they thought I was in pain or something because as I was laying on the floor stretching they decide to lick me to death and block my view of the perky instructor who I think in a former life was a pretzel.
As far as the water drinking goes, I hate water, but the wonderful people at Gatorade have come up with a viable solution for me...Propel. Kiwi-Strawberry to be exact. Now i don't bounce from a drop of water or anything but it beats the usual bland icky taste of normal water and it's not as costly as the ok water of evian.
AHHHHHHHH. I'm a lovin' my home now and just one more thing to do and it will be a kick ass...would you like a tour home!!!! I'm so glad I hired someone who knew what they were doing too. I've learned that i cannot do everything by myself...and why should I? I do what I know in order to get money to pay for things that I don't. simple.and it was definitely better than killing my wrists and having them swell up to where i can't do the job i have. it turned out gorgeous way better than expected. definitely worth it. I think I could have done without certain parental comments though on my personal self as I am well aware of what my health is like I don't need a freakin' commentary on it everytime I see you.
the girls behaved wonderfully while the painters were here. no one was bitten...sniffed and barked at at first, but no major damage and i personally think Mia enjoyed the paint fumes a little too much. she also managed to get into the spanish moss of my fake white-trash ficus tree. snot.. they got their chair back though.
