Frau Blooker....
In an effort to be better about getting down on myself...I've decided this pretty much describes how I'm feeling...( I didn't say I wouldn't be sarcastic). Do you ever just get tired of being angry at someone who just didn't care? I realize what a futile waste of time and I'm only hurting myself...blah-blah pity-cakes. oh well.
but anyway, I'm tired of it. I'm sure this person couldn't care less for me, but I want it known that you hurt me...ALOT. I'm not afraid to say that I actually have feelings. but you know what? I also have a spine and own up to my mistakes. If I screw up, I make it right or at least try to. Hence the obvious one sidedness to communicate. I am wrong to keep allowing this to bug me. I'm wrong to think you're a rotten guy because in reality you are only weak and can't/won't try to look within yourself to be braver. I hope someday you can find the courage to be a better man. Had I not seen at least a glimpse of it in you, I don't think I would have fallen for you in the first place. I hate feeling this way though.