hello brick wall, it's me again
Well, for the umpteenth time, I've learned my lesson about people. They don't want to change. Change is bad. Change is evil even when the status quo is what's actually evil and what's eating away at them in the first place. I too am guilty of this as I obviously keep wanting something I so overwhelmingly yet subtly have been shown that in fact, I will not, cannot, under any circumstances have. But uh...never been told the reason why, but I should just be ok with that because the evil control weasels want it that way. well you can keep it this time. In record time I might add. It took less than a week for me to understand it and then just get over it. I'm really sick of the manipulative acts some people go through in order to maintain a feeling of control. Notice I said feeling because, sweetie, that's all it is. So I will embrace change this time because the status quo just ain't workin' for me no more...not that it ever has. i may be lost, but i certainly don't want to be here anymore.