Gypsy Design :: The Stew

Happy Halloween people and for those of you who are superstitious garlic wearing, salt throwing types I did have an eerie thing happen this morning of all days...A bird flew into the house. It wasn't a raven or the bluebird of happiness or even the chicken of depression. Just a normal run of the mill brown bird who got lost. I've been researching the meaning of this especially on Halloween and so far it hasn't been a positive out come. So far I've discovered that this means an omen of death. but truly could this mean the death of something bad? or just the end of something? One of the more positive ones meant that important news is coming but if the bird can't get out, it means death. Lovely. My particular bird flew back and forth from the ceiling fan to the kitchen cabinets a couple of times and then out the door again. I guess I should be relieved. I'll keep you posted of anything happening.  Personally, I think the bied was drawn to the light since it was still dark out.

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wow. I've officially been busy consistently for a year now...whoo hoo! now if i could just get enough to live off of....mmmmm. Things emotionally have calmed down a bit though and I'm very proud of myself for it, but I'm looking into going to the doctor soon to talk about it over all though. Keeping busy has helped as long as i'm not pull your hair out busy....

I thought about my trip to New Orleans today...and man, I miss it. I have some good memories from there and consider it one of my happy places when I get down...but only in some circumstances.

Preservation Hall looks like they're going strong there again. Hopefully I'll get to see them again.

 

 

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I miss Shel Silverstein 

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  I'm reading this book. It's quite comforting to know that it's not always me. I'm going through a creative slump and need to find a way to detach myself from things that normally weigh me down. My Main goal here is to de-stress myself as I think that my depression feeds off of it and the anxiety stress causes me. "OooooooHM" Having cute little dogs helps alot they are definitely de-stressers. The other book that was paired with the Hairball one is one of those little books that you re-read over and over again...kind of like a creative person's bible to remind them that it's ok to be creative kind of thing and how not to get discouraged when life gets in the way. It's also a very nicely designed book..(hence the price, but IMHO worth every penny)

 

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I think some of the coolest movies were made in the eighties. Vacation is quite possibly one of the funniest movies ever. It's on tonight and i am totally reliving childhood here when this movie was considered taboo in some households.  Christi Brinkley is like what 50 now? ouch. Clark Griswold and his career in food additives... perfect character. I can so identify with that mentality...we all mean well but somehow nothing ever comes out perfect. Clark's fantasies are so cliche but really who hasn't wanted the perfect family vacation or family christmas....hehe....wallyworld rocks.

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Deep breath and sigh...I love Fall. the weather has turned cooler finally. My mood always is better in the fall. I seem to get more energy. contrary to nature. I have decided to focus on updating the furniture in the house by getting rid of certain items that just in the way. The girls will miss their beanbag, but the thing is just too huge. I think I'll get them a smaller one or a nice dog bed for the living room. I caught the girls this weekend being nice to each other. both of them were lying on their backs belly-up and licking each other's ears. t'was quite endearing. I don't know why the expression "treating someone like a dog " is a negative one....I'd Love to be one of my dogs...they're spoiled rotten and loved to pieces.

My previous post regarding the depression issue has still been weighing on my mind. My mom so lovingly sends me articles on overcoming it and how to start thinking more positively. Personally, I do feel alot better than before now that I have a goal and working to acheive it. It does get kind of difficult though when you feel like you're alone in the world though. I think my biggest help will be if I just start getting more exercise. If I'm exhausted, I don't think about it and then I'll start to feel better about myself. Baby steps... I bought some oriental lilies (my favorite flower) for myself from Sam's this weekend. they're so pretty. I'm going to work very hard to really take care of myself from now on. 

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hrmmm...this week has been pretty much non-stop working. I've also been pondering some information that kind of took me by surprise, but I guess it shouldn't have as I'm aware of my depression and having to deal with it, butI never really stopped to think about how it affects others. Here I was thinking that people were selfishly treating me like shit and getting worse and worse driving them farther and farther away. when in fact it was my depression and lack of ability in dealing with it that was causing people to not want to be around me or talk to me. thing is i don't try to be this way, in fact hell i don't even want to be around myself when i get like that, but sometimes it just feels like i'm stuck and can't get out. and having people abandon me when all i need is some support doesn't really help. then again i should just recognize there are some people that can't be supportive because of their lnabilities to truly empathize or feel incapable of helping. i certainly never wanted or intended for that to happen, but i guess just like selfishness i can't predict or guarantee that i'll never be depressed again. i do appreciate being told though it's funny how your ownadvice can apply to your own crap.

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This past weekend has been somewhat a change in the old routine. I actually had no freelance work to do and ended up planning for the future by attending a tailgaiting party for the A&M v. Tech game..(we lost...not that i went to the game). I'd never been to one before as my undergrad was more of a commuter school that consisted of many adults who were returning to school. That whole high school spirit mentality that is so prevalent here was pretty much non-existent. I definitely tell you though, I wasn't a total fit for the environment as I was a bit taken aback by some of the other tailgaters that were present. (including watching a guy throw up consecutively 4 times in a row after unsuccessfully dunking his class ring and being subjected to young women who basically shared one brain cell among themselves and dressed in the same trashy fashion. I say they shared a brain cell mainly because all they seemed capable of doing was to stroll up and down the park without purpose or personality. like the sorority borg..."resistance is futile, and so are we" should be their motto. Luckily, the party I was with consisted of mature individuals who didn't exactly applaud the guy who tossed his cookies after consuming so much beer at once, but rather watched in awe like a train wreck about to happen. All I can truly say is...ew. I may bring a camera next time.

On another note, I'm trying really hard to make heads or tails of certain events that have happened in the past week. granted, this was better than last week but i'm not quite sure of the total consequences of my actions in that I stood up for myself to a couple of people. i even shocked myself actually,but as I'm not used to anyone including me standing up for me I'm dealing with the ramifications of it. But I guess no one is worth having if you have to give up yourself in the process. And anyone who does ask for that or treat you as such may not be worth it either. Still sometimes the heart doesn't always get that right away.

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