mirrormask
hrmmm...this week has been pretty much non-stop working. I've also been pondering some information that kind of took me by surprise, but I guess it shouldn't have as I'm aware of my depression and having to deal with it, butI never really stopped to think about how it affects others. Here I was thinking that people were selfishly treating me like shit and getting worse and worse driving them farther and farther away. when in fact it was my depression and lack of ability in dealing with it that was causing people to not want to be around me or talk to me. thing is i don't try to be this way, in fact hell i don't even want to be around myself when i get like that, but sometimes it just feels like i'm stuck and can't get out. and having people abandon me when all i need is some support doesn't really help. then again i should just recognize there are some people that can't be supportive because of their lnabilities to truly empathize or feel incapable of helping. i certainly never wanted or intended for that to happen, but i guess just like selfishness i can't predict or guarantee that i'll never be depressed again. i do appreciate being told though it's funny how your ownadvice can apply to your own crap.