ok i couldn't wait any longer...i drank the reallllllly goood port. and then i drank some more. and now drank is turning into drunk. i haven't drank in a very long time but today actually seemed like a good day. I hurt my back putting together the bookcase and I'm already wound up as it is from the past week of being rejected...or at least feeling that way. because i have no clue what's going on as usual, however, I've been informed by others that the outlook is not good, but even if it's not by some miracle, the best thing for me to do is stay put, be quiet because, lord. I've talked enough. so anyhoo, i felt I deserved a drink...so thank you, k.