creative block sux....
I knew this would happen eventually. I'm forcing myself to work through it though with scheduling to at least keep from waiting til the last minute. I start thinking about other things and people who really don't deserve my attention to avoid feeling like an idiot. so I get angry instead. angry at people who are immature, irrational and moody and have the nerve to assess me as the negative one. then i get angry at myself for not standing up for myself when i had the chance, and instead, i let it go in hopes of something better in the future (did i mention I'm considered negative by this individual?). but as usual i'm let down in the worst way. but you can't connect with someone who is incapable of even connecting with themselves. or who runs away from even the slightest uncomfortable situation. *sigh* why on earth do i even care about this person? I get treated like crap, confused, manipulated, and then blamed for any little thing that upsets him even though it was just him taking it the wrong way. why? because he's got some major issues that he refuses to acknowledge or discuss even to himself. again...why do i care? i'm angry now, but i will not go to this individual again after trying to be understanding for the umpteenth time only to get proverbially kicked to the side. treating people like crap is not a character trait, it's just mean. so i need to just forgive myself for making the mistake of being nice and get on with it as he'll never change.