big huge ass sigh of relief...
Yeah! My huge long ass, neglect the dogs and the house weekend marathon of work was not for nothing. Although I'm not completely done yet, a lot of the major spreads were fleshed out and the smaller version shouldn't be too tough once the big one is done. so she liked it and I feel the ol butterflies calming down as I really liked it too, but I can't stand it when I like something and the client doesn't. So I owe the dogs and the house some attention soon. Talked to Jeri on the phone last night and got to talking about how to change your focus on events or visualizing what you want out of life. Like not just focusing on what you don't want sort of thing. I am guilty of that in that I'm so freaked out about getting hurt I automatically throw the buts and can'ts right away. Even when I did try to be positive, I guess I didn't really believe it or in it so to speak. Mainly there are a lot of bad people out there who want to hurt others because they're so broken themselves. And I have been trying to survive these types of people for so long I forget to really appreciate those who have been really good to me. Changing the way you think is pretty difficult though. I struggle with it as I feel like I'm just lying to myself and I really REALLY hate lying. but I guess I need to change the way I view that as it's not really lying if it comes true right? hrmmm..