Mars Needs Moms movie ::
Berke Breathed, my hero, is apparently working with Disney and Robert Zemeckis for the movie version of his children's books, Flawed Dogs and Mars needs Moms....*sigh* I hope they do the artwork justice. Here's the interview
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May 30, 2007
May 29, 2007
better late than never
I discovered Maroon 5 this morning. I'm so glad there is still good music being made. Pearl Jam seems to be a huge influence which is a good thing.
May 25, 2007
erg...rain rain go away...make it humid some other day
Or at least until I get my new AC installed next week then I won't care as my new AC will kick some ass in the air conditioning and energy efficiency area. I managed to get through another exercise DVD and it made me fell old as I woke up today and realized my yoga booty had been completely kicked. So I guess what I'm doing here is trying to replace emotional pain with physical pain. At least the physical pain will amount to some good in the long run. Being driven crazy by a jerk is pretty much a no win situation. but more his loss than mine though. I just unfortunately have way too much compassion and caring. damn me. Ah a 3 day weekend approacheth though and I shall do my best to clean up the place perhaps a new rug for the living room...I found one at home depot but they don't seem to have it online...grrrr. I think I'll also go to the bookstore again. It's becoming my new place of worship now that TV has just gone to the dogs anyway. Celia Rivenbark is quite funny and I think I'll look more into the chick books as they're a nice way to relax without having to think too much
May 24, 2007
ouch.
managed to fumble my way through an exercise dvd last night. I felt really good afterward and hope I can keep convincing myself to continue. I also treated myself to a new ishuffle last night and will be walking the dogs tonight at the park weather permitting. Trying to really just focus myself and feel any little bit is a good thing. I noticed something today that literally made my heart drop into my stomach, but y'know how you have suspicions sometimes and really just hope you're wrong only to be proven right? not a good feeling. I should be getting a rather large project to work on this summer through the next 6 months and that should at least help keep my mind off of the ick. I don't know how this all gets triggered, but what I'm really hoping is how to find a way to make it go away quicker. I figured if I just start feeling better about me it will at least subside some...
Karthik will be getting married this weekend and I wish him and his new bride so much happiness. I hope I can find that at some point, but I need to get rid of this ugliness that is just consuming me and actually finding someone who really cares about me would be nice too. so trying to think happier thoughts...and really mean it
May 23, 2007
dear company i used to work for...
please, PLEASE get your act together before someone comesin and does it for you....actually that may be exactly what you need. dear GOOGLE, please PLEASE take over my old company and show them how it should be run.
-end whine
begin new whine- i do realize that simply whining to the internet universe is probably not the best way to deal with crap, but when no one seems to be talking to me anyway about what i am totally interested in exhausting to the ground this is really the only place to go. besides names have been changed to protect the innocent and not-so-innocent and the really crappy people who frankly i would love to just out and expose them but that prolly would be bad karma. and karma is not someone i wish to piss off.
i have a feeling i will soon be purchasing a new chi-chi ishuffle to use to walk the doggies with. they so need to be walked. and i could really use the exercise anyway to just get my head cleared out of all the toxic crap that has just oozed in lately from just dealing with really confused people. tis bad to continue like this and i really truly just want to be happy. just a little unsure as to how to get there or what would really make me happy y'know?
May 22, 2007
uhm why do i gravitate to the crazy?
well the investing thing is now capable of being sold should the need arise. I never did hear back from k after my purging of my thoughts, but you know I haven't cried since and i really think that's a good thing. I still have issues on dealing with why he is the way he is, but really it's not something I can ever answer. In fact I don't think he knows either. he just knows he's out of his comfort zone and will return to that by any means possible. I'm just tired of feeling like the loser all the time and completely without value. Why would i want to be around someone that makes me feel that way anyway? I mean he may not mean to be mean, but I'm not exactly trying to rob him or make him jump off a cliff. still, i thought he was better than that, but I've been wrong before about people. maybe I just need to be alone for awhile, or is that just hiding?
May 20, 2007
who gave Tobey McGuire a license to dance?
I saw Spiderman 3 this weekend ...and while the Tobey/Topher combination was nice eye-candy, the movie kind of well, left much to be desired. And Tobey's little dance....uh no. Tobey, you're adorable, but that's just not you and quit thinking you're barishnykov in White Nights. Of course, my head wasn't exactly in a movie mode but I needed distraction this weekend. I kinda purged myself this weekend, and while it gave me some relief, I doubt anything will ever come of it. but I threw away all my reminders and bought some new books. I finished Bright Lights Big Ass, by Jen Lancaster in only 3 days. The Nanny Diaries in about a week. I've started a new one Called "We're just like you only prettier" by Celia Rivenbark. The Nanny Diaries was a good book and reminded me of someone in particular but sad that some women are that horrible and go to some extreme lengths to try to secure a future for themselves without really working for it. But anyone can have kids, a lot of people just shouldn't.
May 17, 2007
I want to be 11 again...
Alright I admit I watch "Bones"..(who can resist with this guy in it? ::drool::)
So last night, they had ZZ TOP or one of the "Z"'s anyway who plays himself as one of the character's father. How cool is that? It got me to thinking that while growing up one of the band members actually did live in my neighborhood...the nicer
part...I lived on the barely accepted side. But I remember walking by his house as a kid on one of my many "hey let's get lost" adventures. I don't really do that much anymore, but I did end up buying a ZZTOP album on Itunes today. The more I learn about marketing the more I recognize it and TV is definitely starting to try to appeal to some of us in my generation....we had crappy clothes and hairstyles but we had some music that pretty much is considered timeless imho.
My previous rant aside....I'm going to really try to just focus on me and try to just ignore those who crave attention like that as even though it's negative attention, I'm still giving it to them nonetheless. So last night I began my quest of 100 tummy crunches a night....*ouch* good thing is I have a balance ball to ease the back pain these things normally cause so hopefully I'll stick to it. Maybe stick a lifesize poster of this guy on the wall too for motivation
May 14, 2007
uhm what is up with the fake people?
you know, I had a roommate once tell me that sometimes when she gets in a funk she merely forces herself to behave in a certain way (she said like wearing a mask in a way) and eventually she becomes the mask. uhm not quite sure i buy that entirely....to me that's like saying people can change their chemical makeup or something. So the totally upbeat, happy-ass, jesus loves me and all of God's creatures just completely sounds SO absolutely phony and trite. especially when I know for a FACT these people are less than honorable individuals from their past deeds and total lack of accountability. Maybe they have to act that way in order to try to convince themselves and those around them that they aren't the heinous rotten people they really are...I definitely see this a major obstacle of me going to church. Like a preacher said in a sermon of how some people wear their religion like a coat...some people have some thick heavy ass wool coats or even fur..(because God's creature love them) and they have to constantly wear it to establish who they are...but to me they will always be just covering up who they really are. It is quite nauseating to watch the prance of the self-righteous though. ick.
I used to think I was horrible for recognizing it and then have the "saint" chastize me for it but now I realize it was just a tactic to pull the wool back over my eyes so to speak...hrmm I wonder if that expression stems from the other? anyhoo, I can see really what my roommate meant about the mask though...simple visualization..if you can see it you can be it...sorry to pull a Stuart Smalley (Gosh darn it I'm good enough!) but it can turn into manipluative lies pretty quick when used without morals. ok end rant, step off soap box...
really today has been pretty good overall, just trying to work out the whole why seemingly good things happen to crappy people. but then that could all be the fake crap too. most of it always has been.
new stuff
Here's the kid's t-shirt I designed. Actually its a derivative of what they currently had but I like to think I "emeri-ified" it by kicking it up a notch. I have another piece that I will work on getting into the portfolio but it will take a little while. I'm getting to do much more broader stuff which is pretty cool. There's alot I need to work out but I'm not thinking it's a good idea to do it here as frankly, this stuff is pretty watered down...not good for a blog really but this was never meant to really be entertainment but more of a journal of thoughts. hrmmm more later
May 10, 2007
pffftttttt.....erm.pppffttt
stuff..today...uhm looks like i'll be gettin a new ac soon...whee..just a little bummed today....i must just be a glutton for punishment as i must have something to fret over at all times....urggggwhy? i'm doing relatively well...the work thing is actually pretty cool. and i'm doing pretty well with the freelance....so er why do i focus on the stupid thing i have absolutely no control over? i could email to my heart's content thinking i have some impact other than recreational reading when ego needs a boost but what do i gain from that with total silence? *sigh* i must just forget about it and keep going...at thisrate i'll have anew carpet and a hdtv by the end of the summer
May 08, 2007
you know you have low happiness standards when...
getting access to the parking garage makes you do a little dance. Seriously anyone who's ever had to park on campus knows the elation I felt today. Overall...good day though. Found a vendor for the projection system...looked really good. got a great review. my computer finally had software so the whole lugging my stuff back and forth is coming to an end. and I've completed the majority of my errands and waiting to be paid... yeah...must get wine to celebrate. must get drinking buddy. Also the T-shirts I created for the little kids tri-athalon went over pretty well. They had lots o kids show up. I'll put up a pic soon here....can't seem to locate it right now...rather have a kid wearing one tho'. I like making people happy though. mostly i think i'm just trying to keep busy, but every now and then...ugh...i can't stand myself sometimes..ick.
Seriously anyone who's ever had to park on campus knows the elation I felt today. Overall...good day though. Found a vendor for the projection system...looked really good. got a great review. my computer finally had software so the whole lugging my stuff back and forth is coming to an end. and I've completed the majority of my errands and waiting to be paid... yeah...must get wine to celebrate. must get drinking buddy. Also the T-shirts I created for the little kids tri-athalon went over pretty well. They had lots o kids show up. I'll put up a pic soon here....can't seem to locate it right now...rather have a kid wearing one tho'. I like making people happy though. mostly i think i'm just trying to keep busy, but every now and then...ugh...i can't stand myself sometimes..ick.May 05, 2007
*vent*
ok...no I didn't go to the stupid show as it just brings up too much emotional crap. while i'm ok in general i just simply choose not to force myself into situations to be around bad icky individuals who are way too selfish and self-absorbed. i admit that i am still hurt but constantly ripping off the scab of healing won't make it any better. I choose to be kind to myself and not torture myself anymore. i do admit i'm sensitive to hoildays and specific events, but really as long as i recognize it for what it is..anxiety and insecurity, i can just deal with it without bringing anyone else into it.
May 03, 2007
muppet moment
Oh man I miss the muppets. I have several episodes on dvd, and I never stop laughing. I think they're making a comeback in some respects, but I will always love the original... Seriously, do yourself a favor and by the whole time-life set if Disney hasn't confiscated them yet...they rock. The pic below is actually a remote controlled puppet that can actually interact with people in the Disneyland Park in California. Beeker and the professor intice the audience into doing the hokey-pokey.
May 02, 2007
oof. why i can never be a stock broker
lord, this is complicated. the more i learn about stock the more i see it as the world's biggest pissing contest. It's totally manipulative worse than Paris HIlton or Twitney Spears crap, but using your money. It's all a big stupid game. and it's frickin pissing me off that i'm having to deal with it at this moment. ugh