uhm why do i gravitate to the crazy?
well the investing thing is now capable of being sold should the need arise. I never did hear back from k after my purging of my thoughts, but you know I haven't cried since and i really think that's a good thing. I still have issues on dealing with why he is the way he is, but really it's not something I can ever answer. In fact I don't think he knows either. he just knows he's out of his comfort zone and will return to that by any means possible. I'm just tired of feeling like the loser all the time and completely without value. Why would i want to be around someone that makes me feel that way anyway? I mean he may not mean to be mean, but I'm not exactly trying to rob him or make him jump off a cliff. still, i thought he was better than that, but I've been wrong before about people. maybe I just need to be alone for awhile, or is that just hiding?