ah the old sh*t from shinola question...
what exactly is shinola anyway? anyhoo....my christmas spirit has yet to be found. *sigh* this made me feel better on some level, but then this guy is considered a bit crazy and it's wrong that i identify with him on so many levels at the moment... I've been getting a lot of work lately which is good, but i kinda wanted some other stuff to start happening in my life...like y'know living it instead of working through it? but sadly the good stuff that makes my heart jump for joy seems to be just few and far between and i'm thinking i'm in a bit of a rut and working comes so easily for me unlike being social which frankly makes me cringe sometimes. i'm trying, but argghh .... *sigh* (again) here's where i just think doing nothing is sometimes the best thing, right? but i'm jaded and biased and that could be just me being a chicken shit....and you can't make chicken salad out of chicken shit, right? hrmmm i'll probably end up doing nothing and then pissed at myself for such stupidity later, but then i'm prolly saving myself from enormous amounts of rejection....i don't know which is worse, that or feeling like this. i'd much rather be happy and loved frankly...