my second place ribbon...
One of my semi-clear memories of childhood was winning (second place actually...but it still counts) an art contest in the second grade for a fire safety poster. It was over all the school...so I beat out third, fourth, and yes even fifth graders. My prize was a red second place ribbon and 5 dollars which i promptly spent on my dog. Not sure what made me think of this, but it has got me thinking about karma and how people get what they deserve or what they think they deserve....I can be so painfully shy a times and the confidence doesn't come easily but if I don't something about it soon, I'm thinking maybe I do deserve what I get. I still spend money on my dogs... I wonder why getting an recognition now doesn't have the same effect as it did when i was kid...maybe i'm too cynical and jaded. but yet i wish it were sincere and real...maybe just waiting for that sign...hrmmm.