whomever said family is everything, didn't have one
then again, if it's your own, as in you're the one charge, I guess it's a different perspective, but you know if you treat your kids like they're a burden the whole time they're growing up...don't expect them to be really running to see you later on. *sigh* christmas is such a mixed-bag of those crappy licorice candies that nobody likes and regifts until it becomes a big ball of sticky crap that you can never get rid of. wow....am i that bitter? i'm over-reacting most likely, but it's still fresh at the moment. I've had worse christmases ...for some reason they all kinda run together. I don't exactly have the warm cuddly family..(with the exception of my four-legged immediate family). yet i don't really get the whole 'but their my family' sentimentality either...i get pissed and angry about the selfishness and meaness that just runs rampant like a virus or something. i don't want to be near it anymore. i keep thinking about how i want to change the cycle of poopiness that seems to follow me in regards to family and that kind of thing...i'm sure part of it's me but right now the only thing i know to do to keep myself from getting mired in it is to just stay away from it and make do for myself. I just need to get more into it for myself.