and the pendelum swings...
still need to take pictures of empty flower pots. not exactly empty but nothing is really growing yet. my neighbor ended up digging up her lilies and gave me a few bulbs to plant in my little patch of grass. we'll see what happens. the mood has gotten significantly less perky since last i wrote...(wow a whole day!) not really sure what this is, as I realize most of the drama is pretty much in my head and is kinda stuck there. afraid to move forward for fear of something worse. but so far in actuality it's really just indifference and i truly don't have a reason to move anywhere (well, in THAT direction anyway). Lord, what did insane girls do before blogs?
It was an interesting weekend as i tried to just work through the anxiety. I went from buying more cookie pans to being pissed at myself for allowing myself to be so doormatish. i think i'd like to try something extraordinary...i keep meaning to get back into drawing cartoons but again it's such an isolating thing to do and i really don't think i need more of that. but not sure where to begin.