just smother me in gravy....
Obviously I didn't do shit for Valentine's Day. Once I just resolved to not think about it anymore, the anxiety just went away. Oddly I think it was prolly the nicest thing i could do anyway. deadlines and then dealing with someone's heart at the same time can be fairly stressful so I opted to spare him the agony of having to let me down easy. and if I actually bought into this bullshit instead of just admitting I'm a total chicken shit then I may have more credibility. I want to do sweet nice things for him ....really. I just don't want to feel that 's the only reason I'm around. it's quite the pickle if you ask me....totally wanting to be girly sweet and then feeling like i must protect my heart with fierce resolve and huge spiky things so no one gets too close. arg. dogs got valentine's day treats tho. at least someone is loved. end poor me rant and just admit i am a coward.