Gypsy Design :: The Stew

well people. i'm having to do some soul searching here....and with my lame ass childhood that's not always fun. I so want to get past the crap and move on with something better. That's not always easy though as sometimes i don't think people understand or can relate to what it is really. Not their fault, but not something for the feint of heart either. I so hate the drama though so i'm taking time out to figure myself out a bit. i 'm proud of myself for not going too overboard emotionally though. emotions are such a mixed blessing. i do however need to figure out what i need though. he is right after all.....

 aside from the crappy day i had yesterday....stupid speeding ticket, all is rather ok. i sent off the ticket stuff asap just so i could feel less guilty and get it over with...arg.

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there apparently is a category that goes beyond country to 'texas country' wtf?are those the songs that involve marriage to your sister or cousin? truly it has to be a different category? Must we really spread the toxic audio poison of country music? and yet i live in the midst of it. i must be a glutton for punishment. *sigh*. I should be in a much better mood. I actually got off my ass and did half an hour of treadmill. I did feel pretty good afterward. But certain things I've read this past week have been somewhat haunting me....this is why i don't go to scary movies or can deal with the news. I take all of it with extreme sensitivity. That and one of my friends is moving away to Dallas. yet another one...but i have no real compulsion to move there. If I were to move to the city it would have to be austin....and for a really good reason. i do feel the need to escape though. perhaps that's why I'm a little bummed too. or the fact that i wear my heart on my sleeve and can't seem to grasp what is reality. boy did i feel old yesterday. *sigh* this really should be simple. it seems simple for everyone but me....like i've been singled out....conspiracy theory! i knew it! eh...i think i just need some R&R. window will finally be measured next week and tub color has been selected and hopefully put into the cue for fabrication. I so need this. I don't have any reservations about what i'm doing regarding the house.

flashback song: Gilda Radner - "Let's talk dirty to the animals"

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well really i don't have a huge amount to talk about....except for just absurd crap. truly...do people really spend that much time on facebook? anyhoo....project bathtub has seeming come to a standoff at the moment. I don't think the contractor gets the imperative aching need for me to have a bathtub that works....must ...have....bubble bath!!! seriously...it's getting bad. showers are the bathing worlds equivalent of a quickie at lunchtime that was just that a quickie and nothing more.....no..no..it's just wrong. I may be able to start paying it back before i even start though which will be nice....too much debt is bad but really i need to seal the place up better.

I've decided to target my geocaching endeavors to movies shot in texas. i got my cute little geocaching boxes in yesterday and have started to research films that had scenes shot in texas. hopefully, the idea will go over well with c.b. .   i skulked over the film commission of texas' website today....i wanna be about 10 years younger and go through the production assistants bootcamp....i think it would be exciting to be part of the process...although not sure i could deal with the egos. i have trouble with snark period but entertainment people tend to be filled with it. but for now i think i really like my little research project and will hopefully turn into more...in more ways than one. 

My friend Amy has made some interesting decisions for her life/career lately...i wish her the best and a little envious..but not too much in that I think i'm in a pretty creative challenging job for now. I'd like it to grow into more. I'd like a lot of things to grow into more frankly, but we don't always have control over everything do we?  I'm getting to be creative, I'm able to take on outside work without too much effort, I'm making a nice little home for myself....hopefully, it won't always be just me, but i'm taking that into stride.  I'm really progressing ithink...aside from needing more exercise. i do dislike the mirror lately. i've slacked and i shouldn't beat myself up over it but just get my ass back on the elliptical or just start doing more outside. so far that's been a fun thing...the company i was with helped a lot too. I'd have to say that i'm fairly content at the moment...sch a rare thing for me in my life but i'm sure lovin' it. I hope it gets even better.

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