Gypsy Design :: The Stew

Hrmmmm. Sometimes it's not so good to look behind you y'know? I've gotten to where I'm so busy I don't have time to look back. I LOVE that too. I get so mired in what i thought I should be that I forget who I really am and really I should be quite grateful. Just because many go on to do one thing doesn't mean I have to. and lord I love it when people act as if they failed if they somehow end up doing what i do. I love being creative, why is it such a kick in the pants when people ask me about what i do.... sorry i'm not living up to your expectations, but i like that i can choose what I work on. and that i'm not stuck working on it for 4 years either. -end rant-

i am sooooo looking forward to my trip to vegas with cuteboy (oh did mention i'm going to vegas with cuteboy?) I like trying new things with him....he doesn't make me feel all self concious when i look stupid.  I'm definitely liking the whole not looking back idea....(yes i returned to my original subject, shut up) but cuteboy is definitely a positive factor in why I've been able to keep going forward. It's amazing how people can affect you positiely or negatively by how they treat you. huge difference. I think that's why I just don't want to deal with those people anymore. they still make everything about them. and i'm supposed to do all the work. meh, not really missing them anyway...even if I never get the real truth, which i doubt either of these people are capable of telling it fully. I should just realize that everyone has an agenda good or bad. i like where i am at the moment. i really have no desire to return there. even if it means seeing my name in the credits...i can make my own credits thank you very much. i do think revamping this blog and my portfolio would be an awesome idea as this blog in the past has served a purpose of me venting about some really awful people who did nothing, yet claim to miss me, uhm not really buying that, and ew for the whole mentality of name dropping. although i suspect that some of the connection etween certain people deals with the similarity of actions in the past and wanting to be forgiven or not looked down upon for them. eh. i can only control me, and i just don't get it really. *sigh* moving forward :)