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November 05, 2008

witnessing history with margaritas....

Well, I'm not a political person by any means...cute boy is however and while dating his cuteness I've gotten quite an education on politics and without him I never would have seen the cnn holodeck. (seriously, what does that do for the audience really?ooooo multiple camera angles...I really don't need to see the back of Will.i.am...adds nothing) I do have to say though that even I had quite a bit of patriotism this election...with voting and all and seeing my candidate rise above and actually win a campaign that so many people thought impossible. Clearly, today was a bit refreshing knowing that so many people can come together like this and decide that someone different is needed to help move us along. The sentiment expressed by both parties after the election was quite nice in that both wanted to work together....why do republicans boo so much? I mean really, it's quite immature...and the 2 overly republican jerks who specifically came to the restaurant to heckle the democratic event and talk loudly over obama's speech were quite annoying and only made fools of themselves an the people they claim to represent. absolutely no respect whatsoever. again yay for the democrats. there will be jerks, but at least there's some hope for us now. and cuteboy, while i get snarky about the reptitiousness of cnn, I do like being with you Wink

Posted by artjynx at 10:17 AM |

October 21, 2008

Girls who wear glasses

Yes people, There's yet more in the exhilarating saga that is my life...( I almost typed sag....freudian slip, no?) I have admitted the unhealthyness of my life and trying to aim to do better. I've put cuteboy on notice we need to be doing more active things together as we have fun, but really cnn and movies don't do much for my ass. at least freelance pays me to grow my ass bigger. It's also so pretty outside that i'm opening all the windows every weekend lately. This last week cuteboy and I decided to excape on Thursday and go see the State Fair of Texas...why? cuz I never been and it was an excuse to go somewhere. So Thursday walked all over fairgrounds, had funnelcake, won a stuffed dolphin and got a henna tattoo...which proved to be kinda embarrassing since i had to hold my shirt up to let it dry for 20 min. (This is where the gee honey I really need to be more active conversation came about)The funnest part I think was Friday though. we went to see King tut exhibit and then...you ready? we went to Celebration Station right next to the hotel....go karts, bumper boats, and mini-golf...and slot machines! I think cuteboy really liked the gokarts....they were fun..I'd never ridden them before. On the way home, we decided to go Geocaching and took cuteboy's best friend until he had to turn off to head toward Austin. The cache we went for had zebras in the area! yes! someone owns live zebras in Ennis TX.

In other news, I got glasses. After almost nearly failing the DMV drivers test to renew my license. Thought it was time to visit the eye doc. I'm not blind, but man can I see clearer. 

Anyhoo, after visitng a few other caches and the Russell Stover Factory we came home and had a relaxing evening after picking up the girls from a co-workers home. Mia has been acting weird since i brought her home...I think she was a bit nervous that I would give her away again. poor baby. Cuteboy in his never ending total awesomeness helped me around the house without provocation....mmmmcute men doing housework...oooo baby. I lurve you, babe!

Posted by artjynx at 10:39 AM |

September 09, 2008

storm before the calm

I've never felt more like a juggler in my life. I'm trying super hard to get everyone situated so i can leave town for 5 days....yeah i know just 5 days! arrrggg. I really think i've developed ADD from doing what i do. I'm amazed I can have my brain focusing on so many things at once. then there are days like this....

 

 

Cuteboy and the girls are best buds and I think it's totally awesome he's a dog person....makes me love him even more. Anyhoo, he convinced me that the dog park was not full of ravenous pitbulls looking for my schnauzers to snack on. Really, this is a deep concern for me, my puppies don't know evil meaness and i'm quite protective of them. We started out by keeping the girls on their leashes and giving the park a "sniff over" mainly for me to make sure no dogs came to see the buffet so to speak. We had a couple of dogs escort us around and eventually we let the girls off the leash. Maisy immediately became miss socialite and promptly made the rounds introducing herslef to everyone and every dog. Mia, who had never been to one of these places (maisy went all the time in san diego) stayed mostly wedged between cuteboy and me for protection and ventured out every now and then to find maisy. Twas a good time had by all and best of all made me not fear the dog park. 

We went agian the next morning to an empty park but came with an assortment of balls to play with. Maisy and mia got to run their butts off. The picture above is what happens when maisy decides that she needs to cool off..NOW. and this dog doesn't really like water. so baths were had after this lovely trip. I do enjoy spending time with them and cuteboy...Smile

Posted by artjynx at 10:13 AM |

August 19, 2008

Homeless kittens no more

Yay! The kittens were all adopted today by an elementary teacher who lives in the country. I'm happy they get to stay together....bless you sweet kitties. *sigh* makes me hug my schnauzers just that much more. Oy, been super busy....not too much else i can say right now. 

Posted by artjynx at 07:13 PM |

July 07, 2008

consistency is key people

ah people. had me a good weekend. actually, for the most part, i is quite content. which of course causes me to worry...like...i'm due for the other shoe to drop or something. actually it's much better than usual. I've been reading "The last lecture" by David Pausch and he really is quite an inspiring individual. It's helping me anyway to appreciate the little things and get more joy out of what i do have than worry about what i don't. I do have a lot to be thankful for as i have two precious little dogs a nice place to call my own and an awesome guy in my life now that i adore. I have the ability to be creative and actually get compensated for it. so life is good. :)

Posted by artjynx at 08:35 AM |

June 12, 2008

it's been 10 days? really?

soooo what have i been up to the past few days...well went to austin for a couple of days to TCDL...which was edumacational...and in austin so it was kinda fun esp. with the people i was with. It's fascinating to see people who are passionate about what they do when it's so different from your own personal interests...it simply fuels your own goals really. I found myself trying to think of ways of using my skills to better their goals...i'm a giver what can i say? i'm a little torn though on the emotions though as i'm just getting closer to CB, he may be moving back to Austin. *sigh* i've been pouting about it for about 18 hours now...yes including my sleep :P. While I don't anticipate an ending here...I just know it will be harder. i like the stability we have where i see him everyday mostly on some level....even if just for a moment. a simple connection of some sort. maybe it's just me. i definitely feel more relaxed though....i don't want anxiety of change to ruin that, but i think i just have to work on it and find something that will help should this happen. Undecided

Posted by artjynx at 12:32 PM |

June 01, 2008

oy.....hand over the tiara

ah this week has been fun, yet tiring which means i've turned into whiney paranoid girl because of sensory overload. the internal beasties within drive me so crazy at times...i need to exercise more, get a hobby, or just simply get a project to focus on so i don't drive the poor boy away. but seriously, he smells good...how can that not drive a person crazy? twill be a rather quiet week tho. so i checked me out some books

Posted by artjynx at 08:09 PM |

May 04, 2008

tired...but a good kinda tired...

well, i have been a bit busy...oh hell i'm always busy....but i do want to just slow down...tis kinda hard tho. I promised myself though that if i can sell my stock this week...i will pay off some debt so i don't have to work so hard the rest of the year. i really think i need a pre creative outlet so i don't go bonkers by using my imagination where it doesn't belong...like overthinking stuff too much that i don't have control over...who me? uhm...yeah...one of the many things i grapple with on a daily basis ...damn overactive creative part...i'm thinking of just starting with drawing the girls for 20-30 minutes a day. i need to get back into it but not overboard where i lose myself. I'm having an awesome time with c.b. and i so want to treat that with care. he's a total sweetie. luckily the girls love him and they're very good judges of character. so i'm rather inclined to go the way of the schnauzer....

Posted by artjynx at 08:50 PM |

April 27, 2008

sandcastles and more

 
above is one of the cool sandcastles from the sandfest in port aransas, texas. click the pic to see them all. Not thinking to say much about what else is going on as it's prolly best to stay quiet now. It's good, new for me strange and trying really hard to just relax and not psyche myself into self destruction. so easy to for me when things are going well. i question my worthiness, and i usually end up telling myself all the reasons why i'm not.  and get anxious and weird. *sigh* i get so tired of internal drama with in my brain. creatures in my head, i guess.
 

Posted by artjynx at 07:42 PM |

April 12, 2008

you mean there's a difference?

there apparently is a category that goes beyond country to 'texas country' wtf?are those the songs that involve marriage to your sister or cousin? truly it has to be a different category? Must we really spread the toxic audio poison of country music? and yet i live in the midst of it. i must be a glutton for punishment. *sigh*. I should be in a much better mood. I actually got off my ass and did half an hour of treadmill. I did feel pretty good afterward. But certain things I've read this past week have been somewhat haunting me....this is why i don't go to scary movies or can deal with the news. I take all of it with extreme sensitivity. That and one of my friends is moving away to Dallas. yet another one...but i have no real compulsion to move there. If I were to move to the city it would have to be austin....and for a really good reason. i do feel the need to escape though. perhaps that's why I'm a little bummed too. or the fact that i wear my heart on my sleeve and can't seem to grasp what is reality. boy did i feel old yesterday. *sigh* this really should be simple. it seems simple for everyone but me....like i've been singled out....conspiracy theory! i knew it! Wink eh...i think i just need some R&R. window will finally be measured next week and tub color has been selected and hopefully put into the cue for fabrication. I so need this. I don't have any reservations about what i'm doing regarding the house.

flashback song: Gilda Radner - "Let's talk dirty to the animals"

Posted by artjynx at 05:21 PM |

April 03, 2008

so much excitement i can barely contain myself...

well really i don't have a huge amount to talk about....except for just absurd crap. truly...do people really spend that much time on facebook? anyhoo....project bathtub has seeming come to a standoff at the moment. I don't think the contractor gets the imperative aching need for me to have a bathtub that works....must ...have....bubble bath!!! seriously...it's getting bad. showers are the bathing worlds equivalent of a quickie at lunchtime that was just that a quickie and nothing more.....no..no..it's just wrong. I may be able to start paying it back before i even start though which will be nice....too much debt is bad but really i need to seal the place up better.

I've decided to target my geocaching endeavors to movies shot in texas. i got my cute little geocaching boxes in yesterday and have started to research films that had scenes shot in texas. hopefully, the idea will go over well with c.b. Smile.   i skulked over the film commission of texas' website today....i wanna be about 10 years younger and go through the production assistants bootcamp....i think it would be exciting to be part of the process...although not sure i could deal with the egos. i have trouble with snark period but entertainment people tend to be filled with it. but for now i think i really like my little research project and will hopefully turn into more...in more ways than one. 

My friend Amy has made some interesting decisions for her life/career lately...i wish her the best and a little envious..but not too much in that I think i'm in a pretty creative challenging job for now. I'd like it to grow into more. I'd like a lot of things to grow into more frankly, but we don't always have control over everything do we?  I'm getting to be creative, I'm able to take on outside work without too much effort, I'm making a nice little home for myself....hopefully, it won't always be just me, but i'm taking that into stride.  I'm really progressing ithink...aside from needing more exercise. i do dislike the mirror lately. i've slacked and i shouldn't beat myself up over it but just get my ass back on the elliptical or just start doing more outside. so far that's been a fun thing...the company i was with helped a lot too. I'd have to say that i'm fairly content at the moment...sch a rare thing for me in my life but i'm sure lovin' it. I hope it gets even better.

Posted by artjynx at 07:14 PM |

March 23, 2008

happy egg day

Happy Easter everyone.... today was rather boring and I can't really figure out why the hardware stores were open while everyone else but the restaurants were closed...so everyone just eats then goes home to do house repairs? odd. i hope this coming week will bring about some answers though. It's kind of like that old sitcom SOAP... will Tina hear back from the bank about her home improvement loan? will the other contractor remember she exists and make a an estimate that she can afford? will she ever hear back from her dentist or is she doomed to wear the same invisalign tray forever? will she ever get good timing and figure out when exactly she should be vulnerable to others instead of setting herself up for disappointment? will she get paid from her freelance project to pay off uncle sam? I used to think being a grown up meant having control over your life....HA! 

 

Posted by artjynx at 08:06 PM |

March 21, 2008

where's the manual again?

i have to laugh at myself. seriously...uhm i really am clueless so all i can do is just hope and try not to lose my nerve or sanity. I did my taxes today....oooo fun filled good friday fun. and i owe da guvmint. it's not horrible and the the rebate we're supposed to get will help...i wish they'd just allow me to take it off what i owe them. again...it's not gonna break me but it will take a few months to get back to normal.

i have to say my behavior the other day was rather remarkable in what once would've been a nerve wracking predicament. I simply just didn't notice. well I did but i really truly didn't care. really. nothing. I can't tell you how good that felt and then sent me into a new level of real progress and hope for someone truly caring. much much better. even if the new doesn't turn out the way i hope...it still means the past is really finally gone....thank God. even better, I'm not even angry anymore...I just want to leave it behind because there's so much better right in front of me.

big sigh of relief...hopefully, i'll be able to do more with my house this year...soon. I'm finding out new windows would give me a tax break next year...I'll need it. :P 

Posted by artjynx at 11:16 PM |

March 14, 2008

ah...to be 5 again...

I realize it's been a little while since i've written. Actually, I was trying to think of how to write about everything without exposing too much. heh. not not THAT...perv. good things have been happening. and I'm trying really hard not to overthink things and get all anxiety ridden i think i need to get my butt exercising again and that would help tremendously. I so don't want to screw this up. nothing major has happened just me actually being comfortable for once.

One new thing is i've discovered geocaching...and it...is...cool! aunt jemima's grave, a talking bee, and good company. I had so much fun. (it doesn't take much to make me happy can you tell? :))

no major discussions yet, I thought for a second i would bring up the whole thing but brain got the better of me and i'm not interested in freaking people out just yet....including myself.

I got to order a new monitor for home tho so i should hopefully have less misspellings..Wink

 

Posted by artjynx at 08:33 AM |

March 01, 2008

The flowers that be....

 
I realize Maisy is not a flower...but her name rhymes with one..Wink. I am attempting to grow things...besides my ownself which i am needing to shrink...lord one should not evaluate one's body during that of the month its just masochistic....but i do need to be eating better and working out more* sigh*
 
 
 
 
 

Posted by artjynx at 06:46 AM |

February 07, 2008

happy b-day Jeri!

So sad that you're having to spend it in Barcelona. sad. truly. pitiful.  *so jealous*

I finally got my butt back on the elliptical thing and I'm feeling much better now as opposed to being on the verge of tears and wanting to bitch slap the mailman for not bringing me the moolah that is owed to me. trying to refinance the house and looking to do the final updates. Amazing what I can accomplish when trying not to think about other things...who knew avoidance could be so productive?

Honestly, I just don't know what to do or if I even should do anything. One thing I think I can safely say is answer is most likely a resounding 'no'. so what i was planning will most likely not be happening. I'm just not important enough so why put my heart on the line. so trying to find new focus and be thankful that this didn't end too badly and that i realized it before i did something really stupid. kinda sad tho.   

Posted by artjynx at 08:28 PM |

December 12, 2007

the week from hell....

ok people, the freelance is gettin' a might out of hand. this week in particular. ew. so need to exercise but feeling guilt towards puppies and said promised work...(you want it when?) people's expectations are just getting unrealistic. i feel like i'm in a constant state of emergency with no hope of ending. but i do like the extra spending money so i should just raise the ol rates for more time to deal i guess. on the ol personal front, it's a little fuzzy. but at least a warm fuzzy, i think. slowly but surely, i'm trying to really just figure it out. hopefully, this won't take forever and it's nice to hear back and sweet talk is always nice Wink

Posted by artjynx at 04:45 PM |

December 06, 2007

ok this is my life...right this very minute...

maisy the wonder schnauzer has decided that computers are evil and bad and frankly take up too much of my treat giving and belly petting time. Therefore she is barking her freakin head off which makes mia her younger counterpart go a little batshit and begins running around the house like a banshee. I on the otherhand am a clueless dork and probably a little insane..(but then who isn't) and biding my time until maybe a lightning bolt of competency or even just the ability to be less of a dork (they make lightning bolts like that don't they?) comes blaring down on me. In the meantime I've thrown myself into a massive pile of freelance and work and exercise to make me feel like i'm accomplishing something, but really just getting to the next day without too much dorkiness. Miss Doxie however, has it right in that maybe creating a billion dollar empire from The grinch's Who Hash is the way to go. Who Hash...pfffttt  sadly no actual pictures of who hash can be found via google. I'm still searching for my x-mas spirit. I don't even feel like watching the grinch this year ...i always root for max the dog to bite the grinch in the ass but sadly he never does. The worst of the worst of the x-mas specials is "Nestor the Christmas Donkey" which holy crap, still makes me cry for some stupid ass reason...

 

 
seriously, what is there really to feel sorry for here.. they're in the bahamas it looks like. anyhoo...again..not going to be looking for this special anytime soon. it's bad enough the Whos in Whoville have to deal with the grinch crap every damn year....he's baack!
 
 

 

Posted by artjynx at 08:56 PM |

November 30, 2007

ah the old sh*t from shinola question...

what exactly is shinola anyway? anyhoo....my christmas spirit has yet to be found. *sigh* this made me feel better on some level, but then this guy is considered a bit crazy and it's wrong that i identify with him on so many levels at the moment... I've been getting a lot of work lately which is good, but i kinda wanted some other stuff to start happening in my life...like y'know living it instead of working through it? but sadly the good stuff that makes my heart jump for joy seems to be just few and far between and i'm thinking i'm in a bit of a rut and working comes so easily for me unlike being social which frankly makes me cringe sometimes. i'm trying, but argghh .... *sigh* (again) here's where i just think doing nothing is sometimes the best thing, right? but i'm jaded and biased and that could be just me being a chicken shit....and you can't make chicken salad out of chicken shit, right? hrmmm i'll probably end  up doing nothing and then pissed at myself for such stupidity later, but then i'm prolly saving myself from enormous amounts of rejection....i don't know which is worse, that or feeling like this. i'd much rather be happy and loved frankly...Innocent

Posted by artjynx at 02:51 PM |

October 26, 2007

keefer and pixar


good day. Keith...moochas gracias for the hospitality...i had fun! such a cool place and great people to boot.Cool btw...love the company name you gave me...

 

Posted by artjynx at 10:57 PM |

September 21, 2007

Happy Fall

Ah...fall...my absolute favorite time of year...the great pumpkin makes an appearance and everyone gets to eat pumpkin pie...or in my case pumpkin cheesecake (accept no substitute). The mood is actually quite content considering the floor is half gone...I got billed by the water clean up guys and holy cow ...it cost more to rip out the floor than it will to fix the thing. but i actually think I'll be able to get it fixed relatively quickly. It's interesting when insurance is involved how pricey everything becomes....on the personal project of me front, I'm doing quite well, and the mood reflects it...hopefully a certain individual is noticing it too, but I'm really trying not to focus so much on that as I just get all Clark Griswold about it and end up being an idiot (my attitude still needs some adjusting obviously). Note to self: watch Christmas Vacation, I love that movie. but seriously though, not a clue as to what to do so i'm thinking it's best just to be happy when good things happen and not worry so much. I think it must run in my family. My grandmother isn't doing so well and is having to go into assisted living...and she's not happy about it...at all. To the point where she's being quite the bi-atch to my mom, who in turn is stressing about it on top of the other stuff she stresses about on a daily basis...(seriously...this is how I grew up..) It's really difficult to break habits that have been pretty much handed down to you through genes and reinforced by lifelong role model behavior. I mean I'm an adult now and can see that it's just SO not worth fretting over every little thing...hence why i'm just not dealing with my neighbor to get my floor fixed...It's not worth it. I just want my floor fixed so that's what i'm doing. I think my main worry other than the family thing is my own life and slowly turning into the schnauzer lady...but you know the magic number is 3 right? I only have 2 schnauzers so i don't actually qualify ...yet...I'm noticing other women my age getting tatoos now...which...uhm ...no ...ouch. and eventually everything turns into looking like a sad shar-pei dog anyway...how is that attractive?

Posted by artjynx at 04:29 PM |

August 30, 2007

George Clinton and the P-Funk All Stars

I'm Listening to "Make my funk the P-Funk" and really it's quite mellow...I can only imagine what it sounds like drunk...hrmmm. I've started looking at my posts and frankly...I'm weird. but really I like it that way...boring sucks. Obviously the blog has not been updated...*sigh* soon...got some more work to do this weekend...but shouldn't be an all weekend thing. Although making my ass exercise longer did the trick on the being whiney and stupid tho. I now hurt too much to whine. Mai actually gurgled at me in a very demanding maisy-like growl yesterday... I'm thinking Maisy is giving her obnoxious lessons when i'm not home. Whatever the party calls for Cool

Posted by artjynx at 04:20 PM |